It's been an interesting week. An interesting few weeks, actually. I'm sure you can all agree. And while the world has been talking about slowing down and taking time to pause and appreciate what you have, I have doing everything I can to keep busy, to stay occupied, to hustle and stay productive.
Maybe that sounds okay. Maybe it doesn't sound that bad. But it was, for me anyway. And now I'm learning, trying to slow down so I can better create.
Let me explain.
I come from the corporate world
I have worked for a corporation since before I graduated college in 2009. I take that back, even the "smaller" jobs I had in fast food and retail were also corporate. So that's been more like somewhere around a total of 19-20 years? (Putting it in numbers like that makes me feel old. I'm NOT old people. 36 is not old. And, psh, I'm going to be young forever....)
Point: I've learned a lot form my employment history. A lot of good things, yes, like how to work hard and how to value my work and how to manage and how to market and how to communicate and how to research and how to ... all the stuff. But I also learned some bad things, like work hard, work every minute of the day. If you're not hustling, you're not a good worker. Get it done now, even if it makes you sick or mentally ill or all the bad side effects of not taking a rest, not allowing your mind to rest.
Those bad things were the things that caused a horrible anxiety attack that I couldn't come down from until a month after I quit. And even then it took me months to fully heal. And it was those bad things that made me come to the decision that I didn't want to go back to work for corporate. I needed to figure something else out. And so I embraced my dream of being a full-time author and have been loving the writing journey since.
But I didn't truly get away from the bad stuff
This has been a slow realization. But it basically came down to this misconception: In order to succeed, I need to be engaged in working as much as possible.
Maybe you think this too. Maybe not. Maybe you figured out that that is not true productivity. I commend you. That has been a hard lesson for me to learn.
When I talked to Scott about this last night, he said, "I don't think it comes from just your experience in the corporate world." That's what we are taught from a young age. If we are not actively doing something and hustling and bustling, we are lazy. We are taught to always be working on something. We are taught to always be busy.